True Blue

flowers in the trashIt’s hard to let things go.  I’m not talking about losing them, but more or less just letting whatever come – come.  I’ve fooled myself into believing that I was in control or that I possessed some magical power to will things a certain way; however, life’s lessons have proven that I had no magic wand. I want to truly let go of what I cannot change and gain that wisdom to know where I should focus my time.  I want to exhale and literally just be one of those that is unaffected by the thoughts of others.  I can say that I do not care; however, I do.

There’s a situation where you can care, yet, not let it totally consume you.  There are situations where you can enjoy the moment, anticipate the next without carrying heavy expectations that may or may not surface.  One of the worst things that you can do to another is expect them to do or be who you want or expect versus who they truly are.  It is much better to take each person for who they are and/or who they choose to show you they are.  It does not necessarily mean that you have to accept them, but, give them the respect to be who they choose to.

A special person comes to mind.  I need to remind myself that he showcases for no one and that is one of the reasons why I love him so.  He is kind, sincere and loving; however, how he shows it carries more substance than all the flower, chocolate & diamond shops in the world.  At first I wondered, even doubted; however, I’d been plagued by the craziness of phony acts of love. It’s easy to say “I love you” if you do not mean it or it’s wrapped up in 12 long-stems and a bottle of champagne.  What’s more difficult to fake are the consistent acts of love that do not necessarily demand attention, but, receive recognition simply because they come pure.

Love has a myriad of delivery methods and few are done by paid messenger.  They’re simple acts, consistent and free of grandeur.  I have a special person in my life that fervently dismisses pomp & circumstance, as do I.

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