Ignorance Is Bliss

I find myself frustrated that my reactions to you are due to my knowledge of all; however, she strolls through life completely unaware.  I could be fun, carefree and pleasant; however, knowing what I know prevents me from ever really letting go.  I keep my guard up because expecting loyalty in a situation such as this is very egotistical.  I may be loyal, but, not because you expect it, it’s simply who I am.  I could never be an International Spy as it would grate on me to no end.  How is it that someone can expect another to believe there is true